Friday, March 8, 2013

Calm, At Least for Now

February 26th
You have Pruritic Urticarial Papules (PUPPS)

February 28th
You don't have PUPPS, but you also don't have ICP (Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy)

March 5th
You have Gestational Diabetes

March 6th
You don't have Gestational Diabetes, you definitely have Intrahaepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy
You need to be on meds STAT and have this baby next week.

March 7th
Yep, you still have Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy

This has been my very frustrating life lately. The good news is I am having a baby next week! The frustrating news is I still can't tell you what day that will take place. I am sitting by my phone waiting. Then when I find out I won't know if it's a long induction (with cytotek) or a short induction (with pitocin). Feel free to Google those and the other terms mentioned above...terms I never though I would have to learn. 

Surprisingly, I am calm. 

It's my third baby, so I am becoming pretty experienced in all this baby removal junk. 

And to be honest I am just done...ready. 

I am ready to meet this girl - to start a new chapter. 

It makes me a bit reminiscent of my other babies. 

Shelby 2001
Bekah 2011

I don't want to get lost in the "oh I've done this before" I want to cherish every moment of Morgan's birth just as I did with my other precious girls. This time I am just so relived for it to be over (the pregnancy). It's hard to explain so that you will understand - or at least I think it is - you may get it. 

I have to admit that on Wednesday I did have a small "oh my goodness what have we done - we are really having a 3rd child" moment. I am still not packed. I think I've been using that as a protection of my heart for the past month. Now as Morgan kicks like crazy inside of me I feel peace and calm - this is going to happen and it will be a great thing. 

I am sure sometime next week I will have my "oh wait you actually want me to take her home" freak out, but it will all be ok...I can handle three girls - I've got this!

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