Friday, May 4, 2012

I’m Back!



I am sure you were thinking, did she give up technology for an entire month? Nope, I am just slowly recovering from strep throat, again. Third time in the last five months and none of my family has had it so we are pretty sure it is just living in me. Needless to say I am going to the ENT next Tuesday to make plan to get these tonsils out of me – slight cry. Do you worry more about surgery now that you are a parent? I am slightly freaked out about it all, but it has to be done. 

We ended our disconnect last weekend. The experience was good, but not as perfect as I expected. I had this fairly tail image of all the things I would get done without being distracted by Facebook and Pinterest. I somehow forgot I have an almost mobile seven month old – I always seem to forget that when I attempt to channel my inner Martha Stewart. 

I am also a little bummed that as soon as the clock stuck midnight everything turned back to normal. I hate to admit it, but all the things we said would continue after the disconnect haven’t. I hope to improve on that this next week since I will not be sick. This is so important to me – we need family time in a major way.
Here is a little that I wrote during our week of from technology:

April 24th
We picked up something early on in this process when it came to Shelby. She was excited about this process – this experiment. She shared with everyone almost like she was counting down the days until she was able to disconnect – or maybe she was actually counting down the days till her parents disconnected and reconnected with her, no one on one, but as a family. All this time I tried giving her one on one attention by going on outings, just the two of us, just to have her act out. It wasn’t the one on one that she wanted – it was the family. How could I be so stupid – so disconnected from her feelings? Shelby loves board games, being read to and family devotions. Meh, I feel like I’ve neglected her. 
 
Shelby is almost eleven and I am still learning how to parent her. It seems like she changes every year as she gets older and as her role in our family changes. Sometimes I struggle to get into her head, to figure out what it is that she is thinking. 

I am doing my best to not going into a full on pitty party – no one said that raising children was easy and I learn new things every day. I love Shelby so much it hurts sometimes and I just want her to have the best that life has to offer. Oh it reminds me of the Mindy Gledhill song ,  Hourglass.

When you reach for the stars
Don’t forget who you are
And please don’t turn around and grow up way too fast

Just like you, I was small
Not that long ago at all
I wish you all the happiness
That God gives freely if you ask

If you are visiting from Kelly’s Korner, welcome. I apologize for that the first entry you will read of mine is sort of a ramble – I have a tendency to do that. You can learn about me from my About Me section above – it’s a rambling, too. I need to work on my rambling – maybe next week. Anyway, welcome it’s so nice to meet you!


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