It is okay to say, "Seven years ago today I lost my wife of 11 years to cancer and today sucks."
On November 29th it is okay
to say this is not how I planned my life to be
to miss her far more than the other 364 days of the year
to think about her more than me, it's okay
to be angry about the circumstances today
to cry today
to live in the what-ifs
to eat your weight in chocolate
to lose yourself in the quiet ride home
or to lose your temper with someone in rush-hour traffic
to have a bad day
to shutdown (but just today, please)
to not shower, oh wait, you already have. It would be okay if you had not.
to stay in bed all day
Today, it's okay to miss her.
It's okay to hurt.
It's okay to cry (did I say that twice, because you know me - I'm crying today)
It's okay to show the world that life royal sucks sometimes and no matter how many blessing you are given, losing someone you love so much never gets easier.
My dear husband, it's okay to grieve.
|Nicole "Nici" Bahn|
July 20, 1975 - November 29, 2009