I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior
I clung to these lyrics sung by Aaron Shust as I left experience my first moment of quiet since seeing for myself glimpses of the road our country will face after the elections are over.
I don’t watch the news, I most of the time scroll past posts regarding the elections on facebook, but last night I felt I needed to watch. I told Matt, “I need to be informed, I need to know who I am voted for.” I watched until 8:05 pm CST, five minutes past the scheduled start of the debate and then I was DONE! I saw everything I needed to see in those five minutes.
I saw enough to make me so anxious about what our nation will look like in a year.
Angry and frightened are really the only emotions I can articulate at the moment. In that five minutes I was driven back to the feeling I have had twice before, the “how do I raise children in this world” feeling I had as I sat on my sofa 15 years ago and saw the second tower fall. The same feeling hit me last year when one of our local sherif deputies was gunned down in a neighborhood gas station. How do I raise children in this world? What will tomorrow, next month and the next four years look like for my family.
I can only say, “I have no idea.”
I have no idea…I am sure some people do have a good idea of what life will be like, those same people know exactly who they are voting for on November 8th. Me? Can I, seriously, do a write-in? Because I cannot, at all without being eaten alive by massive conviction, vote for anyone in this year’s presidency election.
I cannot just vote my party and sleep at night, but then I cannot vote on the other side and live with myself.
Matt always says that if you know the bible and history well enough you have seen these patterns before, this crap that we are sitting in isn’t new. I am not normally a negative nelly, but I feel the end is coming soon. Oh heavens to betsy that was dramatic as all get out.
Can we just agree that all of this just blows? Both of these people do not deserve 5-minutes of television air time much less four years as the top rank of our nation. Is this really what we have come to? Is Mitt positive that he can’t jump back in at the last minute?