Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Disappointment


I think the hardest thing so far that I have had to deal with in regards to Shelby is disappointing her.

When I married JAG, Shelby and I moved from our house in one school district to another. I thought for sure that since she had completed half of the school year in district she would be fine continuing and then next Fall she would move to her new school.

We found out on Monday that that was not the case and were given only days notice to withdraw Shelby from a school she attended for years. That’s where this mother gets emotional.
Shelby on the 1st day of school this year.
She decided to wear the same thing today - she thought it fit the occasion.

I know what it is like to leave just about every friend you have and start all over again. I felt it first hand at the age of twelve and I swore that Shelby would never go through that. I guess it’s one of those things where you never should say never. Ever since she was born I have wanted one thing – stability and now I am so disappointed that I could not offer it to her in this case.

The past few days have been really hard on everyone. You have to know that I as her mother begged and pleaded with everyone possible. I cried, hell I balled at Shelby’s school. It was so bad a one point that I couldn’t talk – hormones I tell ya.

I know that kids change school everyday and they are resilient and this will be good for her, but to see her face when she learned it was true – that she was leaving – it was so so heartbreaking.

It’s unfair, yet I have no fight – the rules are the rules and they will not make exceptions to them. I wish I had someone to get mad at, but I don’t. We just have to roll with it.

This morning she woke up, got dressed, packed her I am moving cards we prepared last night, put on a half hearted smile and headed to her last day of school – at least at that school. Her mother cried in the bathroom for ten minutes pulled herself together and said “Shelby we can do this. We can make it through today. I promise.”

Tomorrow we will start a new. We are going to check out the new school and then we need a mani pedi and maybe a little shopping. Then on Friday we face surgery. It’s just a day surgery for Shelby to remove her adenoids, but still it makes this mom a tad bit nervous.

Needless to say…We need prayers this week please.

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